how do you tell someone that they aren't as smart as you, which is why you don't talk about "issues of the day" with them? that it's kinda painful being friends with them and you only are out of necessity? it's pretty much "out of sight, out of mind" for me with you. you have nothing of value to offer and are a very selfish person. i usually don't associate myself with your type.

donate4dachshunds

in a month i'm going to be the new mommy of this adorable mini-dachshund. his name is albus mcweenie. (albus is from harry potter and i just thought mcweenie was a cute last name) anyway, i know some people have expressed interest in buying toys, clothes, etc. for him. i would like to ask you to instead use that money and donate it to donate4daschund (if you still insist on buying a gift, please donate a dollar or two as well)http://whosyourdachshund.blogspot.com/2009/04/donate4dachshunds-week-one.html

it's a fundraiser run by the bloggers of who's your dachshund (you can find them on my list) it's going to be helping out shelters in canada, usa and south africa. you can read success stories of rescued puppies, look at their adorable pictures and help out the ones who need it in one step! trust me, this is a good idea :)

epic fail = me

so...i got a dui tonight. and the whole time the police officer if questioning me, i'm just smiling because, fuck, i knew this was coming. i knew my luck would only last so long, and i've been driving while intoxicated for a while......i expected this,

but holy shit, i was not expecting to let down everyone i know. my sister made me feel like complete shit. like "oh my god, i'm trying to drown myself in the bathtub" shit. i dunno....something about feeling like i had let her down was something i couldn't bear to feel. i always knew i wasn't the model daughter, but i tried to be every now and again. and i aways put my sister before anything else.

and here i am. the feelings are not returned. wow does this suck. this tears me to my core. that i have embarassed my family and made my sister ashamed of me. i took 5 aleve, still can't sleep. i asked my uncle larry for help. to no avail. i do hope he's looking out for me. if not, i don't know what to do. hahaha it never ceases to amaze me at how much i hate feeling feelings. even now. i fucking hate it. i wish i could just go through life, feeling lukewarm about everything.

but no, feelings are human, and i'm unfortunately, human. i will fix that one day